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Seriously, I'm not feelin' well right now. But it's been few days, so I get used to it and learned the method of surviving in spite of this feelin :(
2 out of 10 days, I forced myself to stay energetic, it works.
The rest of the days, I just living with it miserably.
It's awful.

But I'm surviving. Still, will do.

For you, I will.

xoxo
pauline yap

Passion Berry

The thing about passion is that one should not give up, and learn to give the very best in whatever that she/he have to do.

"This is your moment", someone screamed that statement. And then another said "I want to be a history-maker"

Just as I was sitting here, I wonder about life on this earth. How it can be filled with moments of happiness, and other time sadness.

How sometimes, it depends on the choice that we make in our life, but sometimes, things that we can't control happen just like that.

How would you react? How's your this weekend gonna be?

The more I think the more confused I felt. So, I stop there.

And I wish that I could climb to heaven. The place of happiness for eternal. For once in my life, for real.

I like the idea of getting nearer to God and worship Him and just enjoy the moment. The moment when I close my eyes and picture heaven, it felt so real, and it felt so good and I was determined, that's the place that I want to be forever.

elisha and einstein has been testing our patient lately, let's see who's the master :p

xoxo
pauline yap

singing 1, 2, 3, 4 by Plain White T

Recently, I'm not been feeling well, the nausea, oh, it's crazy. A while back, I took a sweet. On usual days, I don't eat sweet you see.
A change of diet? Hmmph. I hate it.

Due to unwell feeling, I've been feeling blue too. Not only Monday, but Tuesday too and will it be for other days as well? Sigh.

Anyway, I'm not going to give up on fighting for a happy life, but I just need time and space to cool down before continuing the battle. I felt tensed up the other day and yesterday.

I felt frustrated whenever anyone or everyone speak something without taking consideration about your feeling and being. It's a total turn-off. But I ain't perfect too and I have no mood to point any fingers to anyone or everyone. So I kept quiet and I felt down. I felt the urge to withdraw from the group, and crawl into somewhere peaceful.

And just when I think this is it, I thought about the puppies at home. They are my joy and they took all my stresses away. Hubby has been a great help, taking care of them every morning and afternoon when I am away from home to office and whenever I'm still sleeping when they started to cry for food/companionship/poo time.

Einstein and elisha (pronouced as alicia) is a great birthday gift for 2009. And with the increasing expenses, mummy promised to provide the best food, treatment, and home for both of you - no matter what.

xoxo
pauline yap

things about life...

It's very quiet over here, I've made a choco-oats and finished it within ten minutes, brought the cup to the pantry to wash it because it get harder to wash, then Maureen asked me "going healthy again" then I replied with smile "yeah, hehe". She told me that she will re-park her car later and will pass by One Utama, and she asked me to let her know if I want her help to get anything for myself. How nice is that :)

You meet nice people in your life.

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"I miss you", I repeatly said that with tears. "I can't forget about you, I'm having hard time, would you please come back and help me?" It's a mixed feelin'. One time, I thought, have I gone gaga? How could I believe for seconds of someone that is alive and well as someone that it's already dead? Sadly, it happen to me. Memory box, would I ever possessed the ability to erase the memories that painfully haunt me for year plus? Sometimes, I thank God for the sensible mind - at the brink of depression, I received the strength to just wake up from the bed, washed ME thru shower, and calmed by self by loving elisha and einstein.

You received the inspirational when you thought you're just surviving in this earth. WOW.

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You list down all the the activities in the to-do list for the weekend. And as the weekend arrive, you ensure all the activities are ticked off. After all said and done, you get totally worn out.

xoxo
pauline yap

It was a tiring weekend, I would say. I'm feelin' stressful. I hope by the end of the day, it will all be gone. Let's see how it goes.

P/s: Avoid carbs, increase protein intake, and vege intake.

xoxo
pauline yap

Happy 8th Month Anniversarry, honey. I'm proud of you.

Dearest Hubby,

1. Your wife loves you very much.
2. You have a great laugh, great arms, and great courage.
3. Your wife believe that you will make a great daddy for her kids.
4. You make your wife pleased and happy.
5. You should go all the way for your dreams.
6. Someday, I will see us building a great family together.
7. Me + Vincent = The best & cute couple - EVER!
8. If I see you now, I would have jump from my chair and hugs you.
9. I want to help you whenever you are feeling blue.
10. I would build a happy family with you.
11. If I could sing a song for you, it would be "Lucky" by Jason Mraz & Colbie.
12. We could make love under the stars.

Love,
Wifey.

Recently, we played a game called "My wishlist"

Baby, here’s my wishlist.

1) Grow old with my baby. And still hold hands! :D
2) Go to Bali with my baby, and hence give her the experience of sitting in an airplane for the first time.
3) Go to Redang with my baby.
4) Own a bungalow/semi D with my baby.
5) Buy a new (and a car that my baby like)
6) Eat my baby cooked food.
7) Have babies with my baby :P
8) Fulfill whatever that my baby wishes for.

xoxo
pauline yap